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Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Yawns. I just woke up from a nap and here I am on the Comp. (: *sleepy smile*

Warning: I had a pretty bad day and I'm going to whine a way lot in this post (which I know is pretty unlike me). If you can't stand it, please lay off. Thank you. x/

We received our report books today which was somewhat demoralising and disappointing. So many people had improved their marks from CA1 while I deproved by... a lot. I don't care whether I get more than anyone or not. I just want to maintain or improve!!! Argh. Sobs. I feel the urgent need to pull up my socks but the motivation stops just there with negative stress. The remarks was weird as it always had been since Primary School. This time, it's written "Demure personality, Should try to be more active in class." Demure? o.O All my friends should scream at such a comment.

Gosh, my results... I feel like crying ),: Anyway, that reminds me. Did we make Mrs Quek cry today? Is our class really such a letdown that teachers walk out on us or cry on after another? Sigh!

Eli and Dawn kept kicking and fanning us during Music. It was so cold!!! Ah. Haha. I think I found people more mischievous than I am. :D

Literature. Ms Chong faced the graveyardlike class just as Ms Chua did. Hah! Poor Ms Chong. Anyway, it was a pretty pleasant lesson. I think I could keep that comment on my report book forever. I'm fine with keeping quiet in class. In fact, I love to keep quiet (who would want a teacher to keep picking on you?!), since many others do that too. (:

Math was slack. I was cutting drawing blocks into A4 size right in front of Mrs Khong, considering that I sit right in front and in the middle of the class. Haha. I'm so bold and disrespectful. Couldn't be bothered to check mine or others' files at all. I just let Rox, Sash and Stacy copy my contents page and then I signed Stacy's blindly. Haha. So funny. I flunked my Math test ... the worst that I had ever done in Math (Secondary school) before. And that's the only Common test for Math. I think it'll the first time I'll fail to get an A1 for Math. :[ Sigh, disappointments after disappointments, right before the EoYs. My confidence level is sort of scraping at its bottom now. Ouch. It hurts. Ah. This is pathetic. I feel like skipping the EoYs. It does not seem to be very inviting. I think I'm freaking out. I need a confidence booze now!!! Ah, stress!

I couldn't concentrate on my Chinese Formal Essay writing after Math. I wrote the shortest essay ever. Everything was so demoralising. I felt like giving up and walking out of the class, never to return again (but always in my heart [Ok. Sorry, I'm reminded of the song "This Love" by Maroon-something?? I forgot.]). I don't want to fail my EoYs. HELP. Can someone just tell me what to do? I need my optimism. But where is it? x(

xinying ploughed through her empty list at 8:57 pm

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