You're on my list

i have a list
of things i
like about
you

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

the world's changing, i'm not the same

Sunday, August 02, 2009

alright here i am! as promised.

sigh, i'm finding myself in a dazed state more than often these days. constantly distracted and restless, like a walking zombie. my attention is particularly easily soaked up by music now, and it's not uncommon for me to startled out of some form of trance a few times a day. besides, i've been sleeping longer and sounder. i don't wanna wake up, cos i don't feel any fresher than the night before. like i haven't slept at all. take for instance this morning, i was supposed to be at ntu at 12 today. and my mum had to shake me awake at 10.30. this is not me. i think i'm slipping into escapism. i'm tired. really tired.

did i tell you this before? i think it's exceptionally therapeutic, to stand on platform of jurong east mrt station, facing the chilling breeze and staring blankly at unmoving building and cars. i could do that for hours. but not today. regrettably.

nearing boon lay: a mother simply sat there and waved her child away. i saw myself in the frightened eyes of the little girl, as if i was her and she were me, looking into my eyes. for a moment, we shared the same fear, afraid of losing whatever we have now. i think everyone do. i want to get out of this entanglement. now.

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i'm at ntu now.

i kept getting the brunt for his mistakes, not to say i haven't made any la. but. whatever. i'm having a brain freeze, keep getting freeze shocks when i put my own hands on my face. he looks perfectly comfortable. is it really so cold or is it just me?

低调 keeps re-playing itself in my head. not even after doses from happy songs like 梁静茹's 白色情人节, 盧廣仲's 早安晨之美, etc. 张韶涵's 潘朵拉 worked a bit. but never mind, i shall just settle for the string of emo songs on 933. omg 那个那个by 戴佩妮 is nice.
我很想只盖着我的棉被假装我不怕黑
我还要谢谢你分享了狼狈
haha this 2 hour break is quite productive. i'm supposed to be studying while he snores. it's freaking disgusting but i'm glad to have some personal time though. (:

xinying ploughed through her empty list at 1:06 am

Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty

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