You're on my list

i have a list
of things i
like about
you

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

what are friends for?

Wednesday, September 09, 2009

uh... ok i shan't post about today. today always seems too close to my heart, even if it is past 12 midnight lol. :p i've no idea why. sometimes even yesterday does. i just need time for things to set in; to realise that, yes, these have happened. funny how my mind works. but yea. maybe tomorrow. (:

anyway, i was thinking that, actually, whether our close friends leave the country or not, it does not really matter. because truth is, as we proceed to, say, another institution or another company within the nation, we'll still be going separate ways; we still go on with life, because we have to, because we just will. yes, we do keep in touch, we meet up frequently, and we try to catch up with each other as often as possible. but in reality, we all know that no matter how hard we try, how much effort we put in to maintain the friendship, we will never be the same again. we still cajole, pour out all our silly moments, never minding about a fool of ourselves in front of each other. but still, it isn't the same anymore.

because we have taken a foot out of each other's life; there'll be things that you find that you can only tell your new friends, because your "old" friends just won't understand your woes if taken out of context. because we grow old; when 1 year makes a big difference, when we are unable to understand the disparity between our friendships now and then, we look back and realised that the relationship hasn't changed, but we have, for better or for worse.

bff. best friends forever. best buddies forever. bosom sisters. or just friends forever. whatever.

it's all a facade. a self-deceiving way to reassure ourselves of supposedly ever-lasting relationships. i'm not saying that it'll never happen. examples of sweet "forever" relationships are aplenty. but i just find it a joke, because we never know what the future holds and should never make promises that we most likely will not be able to uphold.

it's funny how some people are unable to make new close friends when they enter a new environment, because they believe that "old" friends are sufficient. but friends are not food; sufficiency isn't what we are looking for. and i'm not referring to one's popularity. friends come in plural; it is a two-way thing. friends are not there to feed our boredom. rather, friends are there just for one another.

yawns. i'm tired.

alright. set aside your insecurities. it's time to show some sincerity (:

周華健朋友
這些年一個人風也過雨也走
有過淚有過錯還記得堅持什麼
真愛過才會懂會寂寞會回首
終有夢終有你在心中

朋友一生一起走那些日子不再有
一句話一輩子一生情一杯酒
朋友不曾孤單過一聲朋友你會懂
還有傷還有痛還要走 還有我

i still love you, my friends. forgive me when i find it hard to say "forever". because it's just hard to fathom what we'll all turn out to be like in this "forever".

xinying ploughed through her empty list at 1:24 am

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I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty

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