You're on my list

i have a list
of things i
like about
you

Tried to write a letter; In ink
I've got a piece of paper; But it's Empty

let it not sink into the deep blue sea

Saturday, October 10, 2009

GOODBYE PROMOS and HELLO FREEDOM ((:

*stunned*

ok it's been so long since i last blogged, i'm getting a little intimidated by it. bear with me till i get the hang of it, i'm just out of practice. actually i'm getting really rusty for everything. say, for academics, simply reflecting on how i messed up my most probable A's in math and chemistry traumatises me. as for the other subjects, i'd say i did my best, though i was at the height of all distractions x) hopefully i can still narrowly make the criteria for h3! =x or i'll have to kiss goodbye to my beloved pharmaceutical chem~ D:

maybe i've been grounded for too long. like a caged bird, who has grown increasingly unfamiliar to the taste of freedom. the absence of sweet exhilaration, and in its place was a unsettling sense of uneasiness. maybe i'm a newly-discovered inborn workaholic. or maybe i'm just anasthetising myself with the multitude of work all along. on all odds, the latter seems more probable because i can never be more distracted these days.

seriously, can you simplify things a bit? i really cannot comprehend what you are thinking about. and i'm not deriving any pleasure from it. well, just what is going on? honestly, i don't think it's stupid to be pissed at someone. but it's absolutely idiotic to keep it to yourself and let the displeasure propagate. when all you need to do is tell me what exactly is wrong and we can talk it out. and it's not as if i don't feel anything. you're doing both of us a disservice by keeping mum on this whole thing. and at the end of the day, when everything turns out to be a misunderstanding, you'll be slapping yourself stupid and crying your heart out. i'm not saying that i'll be any happier but i'll have no regrets. because, at least, i've tried to mend this crack. but it's never going to work if you're hammering the glass apart at the same time. i know i lost a friend but so did you. and your integrity, plus your chance to salvage this relationship as well.

this is ruining my day. i need to get to the bottom of this.

人類如果沒有心臟那就好了
受傷不會流血悲傷也不會流淚

xinying ploughed through her empty list at 11:02 pm

Tried to take a picture; Of love
I wanna fill this new frame; But it's Empty

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